almost everyone was drunken in the happy mood of the celebration. everyone except me, suddenly feeling the chill run down my spine. i felt all too cold to accept myself into the happiness. it felt weird. it felt as if i wasn't in their world. it felt that i was on my own and they were in theirs.

soon enough i'll look back at these silly things and still be able to laugh. i hope. it seemed that everything had changed. my friend doesn't trust me. oh, well. had he not trusted me in the past too? it looks the same but it wasn't. and i had felt in the wrong way for a moment. why was i feeling the situation for him? why had there been a tinge of grief?

happy birthday KELVIN TAN

i'll let you have the happiness and i'll keep the rest.

i don't even know what state i'm in now.

oh today was kind of. err. pointless? except that i got a huge bit of satisfaction for finishing my chinese homework, even in the worse way la..

hmm. so. i tried hard to concentrate. worked pretty well la. but the homeroom system is getting kind of tiring even though it had advantages of not letting us fall asleep THAT easily. and that we get to sit in groups now. and chat all we like during english? oh well.

kinda rushed through the webquest. so NOT our fault. CGB posted that we could do and powerpoint and then edited it without informing. who in the right mind would get back and check the MLG if we had already started doing the project or even finished it? i hate her. SO MUCH. and she still got the cheek to tell us she edited it. =/.

our chinese teacher was kind of sick today. she looked like she was having asthma =/. we all worried for her. she's really a very nice teacher. =/ but she's sick often. get well =D. oh and after school clara [grandma], jiacai [mommy] and kahliang [brother] went to BK @ yishun to do our homework. clara's got tuition there so she joined us later. the first hour or so, we were all sort of trying hard to chiong our homework except for liang. he totally, practically was staring into space until i told him to do the [stupid] vocab book. and he still refused to do it la. alamak. how to improve grades like that. =/. and kind of found out that mommy likes to be a reporter-cum-advertiser-cum-err. whatever. ahh! his chinese is so good. and he dropped higher chinese! he was like my narrator and i was just kind of the person who writes it all down. =x. okae. i loved the productive session there =DD.

oh, and did i mention i have a TEMP LOCKER now!? LOL. many thankyou-s to lewis. LOL. his supposely-stuffed-with-stuff-locker is MINE now! =x. okae. not exactly mine. but at least i have a place to put my books now la. =x. yay. no more heavy bags.

i can't help being a saddist. how can i if i live in this complicated world. and the worst part is, things complicating me!? =/. and seriously i don't feel so alright afterall. school's just the place to escape and make things more complicated.

i will not see you in a different light when sun shines tomorrow. you will still be the same. if there would be a change, it'd be me.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LOR and FEL!

GIRLS LANGUAGE

when she pouts her lips, kiss her.

when she kicks, hug her tight.

when she calls you crazy, she's actually crazy about you.

when she is silent, she is actually thinking of how to say that she loves you.

when she ignores you, she wants all your attention.

when she pushes you away, grab her by the waist and tell her that you'll never let go.

when she's at her worst, tell her she's beautiful.

when she screams at you, tell her that you love her.

when you see her walking, sneak up behind her, and hug her tight.

if she doesnt call you, she is waiting for you beside the phone.

when she says 'i dont care', you cannot imagine how much she cares about you.

when she says she's scared, hold her by the waist and let her head rest on your shoulder.

when she tells you that something is wrong, kiss her and tell her that everything will be all right.

when she holds your hand, play with her fingers.

this is taken from vanessa's blog. it seems true. hahs. at least to me. sigh. it feels as if school's the only place i can enjoy now. being at home is becoming to pointless to me. family? how to define a family exactly? lies. they're all lies. who said that having a home is having a family!? who said that tomorrow will always be a better day!? who said that parents would do everything for their children!? liars. all lies.

you said crying isn't the way to solve the problem. so saying that kind of things is!? you don't even f-ing know the problem. so what if i'm emotional!? so what if i like to cry!? it's my tears, it's my emotions. and you have no f-ing rights to stop me! and how do you even expect me to react to the situation? i don't even know what to do anymore. all that i had wished for was that kind of love that every child receives. all that i hope for is just a happy family. i don't even know if i understand that word anymore. you are all the same. i hate ALL OF YOU.

just wanted to see you. even if you don't want to stop and take a look at me. just wanted to take a good look at you. to know your smile. had hoped to talk to you. maybe you didn't know. but i tried to talk to you. i wanted to. i just didn't have the courage. i just weren't brave enough. i wanted to tell you how i wanted us there again, the thrid storey, on that table, looking out at the window at that sceneless picture. but i guess i just aren't strong enough to go ahead with it, just aren't brave enough to tell you.. ilu.

trying to finish my LAST LAST bit of hw. err. my chinese book report ar. the book is getting more and more interesting. kind of sad =/. err. quote: '世界上最远的距离不是我在你面前你却不知道我爱你，而是知道两人相爱但不能在一起。' hahs. INTERESTING. hahaha. i've finished the science thingy too. ain't i a genious? =x.

and.. err. i decided to leave the friendship thingy to nature. hmm. i don't really see how i can save it. maybe just becoming used to it =/. anyway, talked it out just now. seriously like carina said, gemini-s are always sitting on the fence. i'm always unsure of my decisions and i change my mind kind of too quickly. and it kind of err. hurts people. people i actually CARE about. i'm not too sure too. sigh. sometimes i think i'm just a BIG CONTRADICTION to myself. but yet, i have no idea.

yay. gonna long bang lewis' locker. hahas. homeroom system. sigh. hope that everything just goes well. school's starting and the rope skipping side. well, lucks to me.

i don't want to hurt anyone.

is is me or are you treating me differently?

friends. just came to realize that most doesn't last. thought that there WOULD BE exceptions. but they are the same. all the same. it was weird how my seven-year friend skipped my birthday celeb. i can't deny that i was disappointed. i was. you know if he disliked my PH friends or in fact OUR PH friends then he could have just told me. instead of like, giving some stupid excuse for not coming. you could have came if you REALLY WANTED TO. maybe he just got influenced by another so-called friend. i really don't know. but i did not expect him to actually be missing that day. saddening, isn't it?

and again i just realized. a friend to to talk to isn't easy to find too. oh whatever. have to live with it anyway =/. heh. went to teckghee pri to watch them practice with jx and alex. alamak. alex talks like an old man. hees. okae la. but he tells us err. wad do you call that? err. okae. whatever. something like he sees things differently. hahs. then went for lunch together la and talked. hmm seems like it's hard to resolve conflicts =/.

then mugged at mac alone the whole aft. and finished my hw!! =DD. yay!! now left the sc proj i'm STILL doing and the chinese reading report. ahh! so happy =D. school's in THREE minutes and TWO days!! excited!! =D.

so why do you have to tell me that in the first place if you want to change your mind so quickly?

err. back from camp. back to reality i guess. hahs.

back to remember i've got zillions of hw not done, back to having hard to solve problems again =/. haha. but still haven't quite recover from my after-camp-effect. camp was really fun. [i'm so lazy to type anything that happened] err. even though there were conflicts, irritations, arising problems, thousands of things that went wrong, troubles and more troubles, we managed to pull through with inpromptu suggestions, trust and determination. =D. camp comm rox =D. and i'm glad to say, that's we've bonded =DD.

it's FIVE minutes and THREE days more to school. and i have err. sooo-so-so many things to do. so-so-so many things to think about and settle. hehs. so shall not elaborate on the camp and post the pictures. may do that if i'm free =D [and feeling less lazy =P]. lol. meanwhile can check the blogs of the other ppl to see if there's an update on it. tomorrow's gonna be another busy day again. =/. life still goes on... =).

iloveUVPHS.

lalalas. i'm online instead of doing my work. and i don't know why. xD.

ahhh. shouldn't have been PERSUADED for the ndp stuff. regretting it now =/. kind of err. waste of time la. but cannot say already then never do ma. so do lor. sigh. just take it as physical training lor. have yet to come up with the doubles choreography and err. have yet to practice my power moves. damn, i can't do that push-up and that mulekick. =(. hehes. just need to WORK.

oh. today was camp orientation. went pretty well, even though some of the planned games couldn't be played due to some reasons. we can still do it without a backup plan! yay! one camp comm clap, ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta-ta, CAMP COMM! hees. and and, we've got a choir clap too! LOL. yay, and my fringe is long again! =x. okae out of the point. err. tmr will have fun-er activities! and choir practice was kind of fun today. other than the err. song. LOL. oh, and my station for amazing race tmr have swings! hees. they say would be quite quiet. but i think it'll be fine ba. =)).

haven't pack bag =/. haven't done the work i intend to do =/. haven't come up with the doubles thingy =/. oh why haven't i die yet? xD.

lalalas. waiting for X-Jump! tee, class tee and... err. whatever. tata~ =D.

things don't change, it's the people that change.

true enough. i've been working hard. lol. harder than i was a few days ago. At least now I'm left with history, a bit of math and two lit essays. looking good =D. just a little more. juinli came in the aft. but i ended up talking on the phone. =/.

i'm dead. and i need a BLACK school-based shirt. =/ my ruined class tee. sigh. so sad to think about it =(. oh and i'm gonna be IN CAMP from the day after tomorrow! i hope the camp goes well. hmm. at least i think the games we prepared are fun! lalas. and GREENTEAMAN is going for the camp! =x.

lalalas. having great thoughts for X-Jump! but don't know if we will HAVE the future la.. lol.

missingyou. =(. suddenly every moment i spent with you ran through my mind again. i want to talk to you. =/.

should be chiong-ing hw today. if i'm not going to, i might as well suicide.

elder people sure have much more stuff in their head =/. oh. and stelalalalamer is going to HONG KONG. i wanna go too! and stupid joshua is going korea. sigh. i wanna go too. hahs. why is everybody travelling when i'm still having tons of undone hw? lol. i got loads to think about and i'm practically totally isolated from everybody la. like being dettached. hahs.

howdo you expect me to believe you!? so what if i can't stand you going away!? so what if you keep flashing past my mind!? so what if i'm waiting for you to text me!? so what if i do miss you!? and so what if i do like you!?

sigh. wasted another day. just like that.

i tried to cook dinner today. TRIED. i seriously tried. didn't turn out THAT bad. but wasn't quite in the mood. computer had to eat with me. otherwise how can it be called my best companion? hahas. going to finish my vocab book and read up and electricity later i guess.

seriously no mood for anything. don't even have any idea what to do too. hehes. slacked and slacked. =/. need to work on my work soon.

oh anyway i went to the supermarket today and found out that the only kind of vegetable i knew how to cook was broccoli. sad isn't it? lol.

okae. whatever. i'm just bored. that's how i ended up here. =x.

i don't even know if i can believe you anymore. they're all the same. maybe you're the same too.

loads not done.

ONE - lit assignments [three essays]
TWO - Taman Negara [reflection essay]
THREE - history assignment [two pieces]
FOUR - science webquest
FIVE - science electricity worksheet
SIX - math worksheet
SEVEN - sort myself out

like kind of no point to depend on other people to figure myself out. i don't even know what i want. =/. walked back from khatib today. rained halfway, awhile after i left chongpang. felt tired but was happy. at least i had spent time outside. even if i was alone. weird huh? hahas.

you are not the one i knew. why have you changed? why now? how do i tell you now? how i actually feel? we had no chance. you broke it. you hurt me. you never actually needed me at all. everything was just a pack of lies. only if i had known earlier. only if i had seen through you sooner. you dumped my trust. you lied. liar. scram!

puzzle my sissy gave me. she ate the three missing pieces xD.

 

i told you i had the obssession for these dates!

 

date-obssession.

 

bball rox, even after a long time.

 

steamboat scene? x/

 

just because you can't find the f-ing phone because i left it somewhere hard to spot, doesn't mean you can just scold about things which are not true and just take me as your punching bag okae. fyou.

had a pretty okae birthday at first. but everything seemed to be ruining my mood. err. yesterday's steamboat was... okae. and we went for basketball and then watch soccer at inez's house. my seven-year friend didn't come. i did enjoy. oh well. if you so hate me and the PH people, f-ing say it in my face instead of hiding somewhere out there. being in a better school doesn't make you superior. because even so, you lack one of the msot important thing on earth. FRIENDSHIP. true friendship. have you even heard it before!?

then went out early today for some project which i don't even know. just finished it in a sloppy way and went around to walk. haha. then went bishan to jill's house for camp com. meeting. yay, we're almost done. oh. and GREENTEAMAN is going for the camp. lol. whatever.

had dinner with my family. ate at sakae. irritated after dinner. mom talked about why have the buffet when the ala carte is cheaper. then eat le also eat le what. wtf. spoil mood. superly pissed off now lor.

THANKS!

big thank you to the following people.

wenxin, juinli, jen, lewis, xinyee, inez, valerie, amanda, alicia, jason, jia cai, krix, my sissy, stel, sia, jer, nna, carina, joshua, liangpin, eunice, lijia, yongmei, jialing, tianwei, chiagek, clara, jill, xinyi, yiwei, kezia, huiqing, jiani, jiaqi, huiyong, shimin, junxiang, alvin, my mom, my grandma and granddad, loretta, kahliang, kelly and xueli.

i hope i didn't miss anyone out. gonna enjoy the last 30++ minutes or so of this day. haha. tomorrow will be a better day =/.

i may have fallen. give me time.

Forever.

1. for all time: for all future time [which just exactly mean, endlessly.]

i was once told that there was no forever and i thought it was quite true. and whatever that person told me was right. and i stopped using the word. how easy is it to have something last for a lifetime? or even longer than a lifetime?

bleah. why do i always have to think of weird things like that? haha. seriously why say forever when you can't really promise it. why promise things that you are not sure if you can fulfill? why hurt someone this way? =/

oh well, just learnt the truth today. does not seem to mean as much to me anymore. afterall, it's been so long. hahs.

argh. some stupid people deleted the more 'obscene' picture of making kahliang split. STUPID. i got pissed off by some stupid people who called twice and hung up without a word. and this second stupid person is making me even more angry la. tmd.

oh well, to describe the picture, it looked as if shimin wanted to rape kahliang and he was protecting his... whatever. haha. but it's lost now anyway, because of some STUPID person. i don't know who. sigh. kind of a ruined mood. going to do some work today. hope i can do. and gonna er. start planning for tmr's celeb? i hate planning.

er. i want a jumpers' tee. prefably a jersey. jer wants a 'overall' or 'jumper' kind of thing. but we can't jump in it. nna has no comments. sia didn't say anything either. fion would probably agree with anything we choose. oh, we're one harmonious-indecisive group of jumpers. LOL. X-Jump! rox. X-Jumpers rocks even MORE! =D.

<33` X-Jump! haven't made the wrong choice of members. =DD.

okae. i'm lame. and i'm off. bye.

trying to make kahliang split. LOL.

 

if this is the way you measure friendship then i think you got the wrong friend.

back from chalet =). did have fun with classmates and choirmates. haha. first night went quite slowly. and like we played blackjack and the forfeit was push up. lol. kahliang kept doing the push up open-legged, trying to look pro. then me, shimin and jason when to pull his legs apart for a split. omg. the photos taken looked as if he was being raped by shimin-mostly and little parts of me and jason. lol. i'll post that soon. lol. and shiewdee was so concerned about his pimples that he didn't let me take photos of him without 'cover' lol. went to och in around mid-night and went back chalet at abt three. gripped jason like siao. =x. couldn't help it la. who ask them, force me to go. hees.

can't really sleep the first night. ton-ned until 5++, playing metal slug and slacking. lol. finally slept. and that jason found some bed and didn't call us along to sleep. argh! lol. and then i slept on the sofa and they slept the floor lol. second day was better. but swee koon woke us up at 7++ la. then demanded us to go and have breakfast when everyone else is like still sleeeeeeping. omg. then we all fell asleep in the karaoke room later while hearing ocean's 'xiu xiu xiu'. too soothing i guess. lol. later the day we hung out in the room. and played stupid games lol. shan't elaborate on that. lol.

enjoyed the chalet after all la. lol. time to commit to work. being called to be an official in sec sch comp! yay =). think it'll be fun. would feel great to see some X-Jump! members also. and i wonder what happened to our X-Jump! tee. LOL. oh well. i hope we can make it soon.

i don't even know if you understand what friends are all about at all. i may misunderstand but i am totally disappointed. i never expected it to be this way. hate me if you want. but that will not help change anything. i think you've just searched for the wrong one to be your so-called friend. and if so, why don't you just FREAKING TELL ME IN MY FACE?

don't act as if you totally understand my every word and move. because you DON'T. and quit accusing me of things i haven't done.

need not say more right? hahas.

lol. tw says that my shoulder is just nice for her!

 

STOP! lol.

 

LOL. see the gold coin there? chiagek's the beggar!

 

finished dessert.

 

my SALTY ramen.

 

cool right? =DD

 

working hard. library@orchard.

 

the nalgenes. lol.

 

cake after candles have been blown. ruined. LOL.

 

Initial birthday cake.

 

lalalas. i'm down with flu and fever. but i'm HIGH!

oh. and i pierced my ear. woot. lol. i was so scared to do it but tianwei! lol. that girl encouraged me. yay! DADDY [tw] ROX!~ hees. it wasn't as bad as i thought anyway. but it was quite high up. that's why i was scared i guess =x.

went out early in the morning to celebrate SOME people's birthday. lol. i baked a cake. which tasted. quite okae at first bite but horrible on the second. LOL. but it was cute anyway. upload the pics later. hees. my first try. it's not bad okae. but i admit. really CMI without machinery. i didn't have the beat-er so beat it with a fork and guess i didn't beat it enough. hees. that explains the horrid-ness of the cake. oh well. ppl who wants to try it can look for me these two days. lol. or i'm totally gonna throw the thing away. and i am SO CONSIDERATE. not like some ppl. bleah.

okae. went to meet chiagek, lor and tw at novena. yay! i'm late but not the last! hees. went down to orchard library and managed to finish the proj. in an anyhow-manner. lol. then went to bugis. we DID NOT really shop. ohhh. i'm so proud of us! =DD. then spent loads of time in the 11th storey of the national library in bugis. LOL. they had to protect the IMPORTANT archives so much that they made us put our belongings in lockers. omg. then we went in. wasted time in searching for articles in books. but we found out about the microfilm for the older newspapers. so YAY! we were in that room. i've never thought that going to the library was so fun! they had this machine which lets you see the microfilms and it's so-so fun! lol. and without much thought, we spent the whole afternoon there. printed two articles each and i found it fun to compare the prices in the past and now. and can you believe it?! The Straits Times was 35 cents per copy TWENTY-SEVEN years ago! omg. that was so cheap. compared to now la. okae. then after that we went to eat at ajitei. which seems nice but not actually very nice. LOL. and did i mention that my nalgene fell from my hand onto the escalator and then rolled a few rounds before someone kind picked it up and returned it to me? omg. poor nalgene lol. with a few scratches on now. hahas.

bleah. the ramen was so damn salty. really NOTHING compared to ramen-ten. lol. so four of us shared two desserts and chiagek ran away after eating it. and tw, lor and i ate dinner there. was so full! hees. we should so go out more often! =DD. but i as for normal, i was the last one to arrive home. LOL.

despite being sick, tianwei says i'm still HIGH. abit psychotic. but i like it!

"Tis a great confidence in a friend to tell him your faults; greater to tell him his." - Benjamin Franklin

omg. i'm sick.

=(. i got flu =((. it was sad enough that i had nothing to do at home and had to watch kids central the whole day. i had no mood for homework. and now i got flu. sigh. have to sleep soon. =/. INEEDCARE! lol.

i baked a cake! lol. it isn't exactly the best cake on earth but still, I BAKED IT. lol. it doesn't taste very nice la. but still.. lol. edible. i have to pray that whoever who eats it yesterday lives. LOL. stel, that does not include you even if you eat it lol.

pathetic jerk.

i've been tagged by : KEZIA

(instructions: state eight different points of ure ideal lover. mention gender. tag eight other ppl to do it.)

gender : male
01- like my everything.
02- caring to everyone.
03- trusts me.
04- not too 'stuck' on me.
05- mustn't act differently when together with his friends.
06- never makes me cry.
07- listens to me when i want to speak.
08- not indecisive [got zhu jian] but not too decisive [da nan ren zhu yi]
not another flirto please. LOL.

PEOPLE I WANT THEM TO DO ON THEIR BLOG.
01- katherine.
02- limliangpin.
03- krix!
04- STELLAMER. lol.
05- valerie.
06- MOMMY!
07- terence ong.
08- chiagek.

don't have to make me hate you. you know i won't.

you don't have to hide anything from me. if you think it can get me down then you're so WRONG. it's not as if i can't take the nasty stuff or something. why do you underestimate me? what? i can't take all those nonsense? =x. why am i even being mean to you? i shall wait until the both of you decide to tell me something. which you know and i don't.

tiredtired day. i've been starting my posts like that for don't know how many times. lol. i guess i'm just tired. hahas.went out early in the morn to the world bookfair with carina. bought to OH-SO-WORTH-IT books. lol. so went around the town area by foot and then bought a few things here and there.

should have met tw! we go town everytime at the same time. but we always never meet each other! LOL. and currently, krix has sent me SUPEERR cute slides on a certain topic and i PLAN to send it to every single person i know. MUAHAHAHA. omg. xD. it's so funny! =DD. krix, you've done too much research on it. we shouldn't let it go easy on her should we? NO!

i think i'm gonna experience the worst day of my life. on ELEVENTH JUNE o' SIX. no mood. no fun. no creativity. not that i want to be a wet blanket even before it starts. but seriously. something killed my mood. although it shouldn't quite be. the conference did it. oh well... i feel drifted.

SHUT UP and get outta my life. jerk. don't even try to badmouth me. or say something nasty. it does NOT matter. AT ALL.

omg. but i have to blog this!

People often misinterpret love. Frequently, people think of love as sweet, innocent, and just simply wonderful LOVE.
But they are wrong. Not all love stories have happy endings. Not to mention the process of getting there. It’s not easy to meet your true love, nor is it easy to throw away everything and just be able to love.

It is hard; harder than anyone can ever possibly imagine. So the next time you think you’re in love, think again.

quoted from: Toxic Love -- Meteor_gurl, winglin.net.

how nice to find this when winglin is finally back up. there're few good stories there but i still enjoy my time fantisizing. =D. oh well.

i used to be guilty of thinking that it's easy too. but then. young and oldER thoughts differ. lol. but the truth is, now, i don't even think i know what it means. maybe i'll never understand. xD. err... not like i care YET. ahahas.

isn't it sad that i've seen through you all too quickly?

jerk. let me tell you i'm a person not a replacement.

omg. can i cry? my post is gone again. sigh.

thought loads after ytd's convo. today's too.

many people are actually getting on with their own life, just merely brushing past the lives of other people, friends, family, loved ones and people around them. everyone is just so busy with their own lives and have no time to even stop and look at the people around them. and often only start to cherish when they're gone.

take my friend for example. he behaves one way with his 'long' friend when alone and ignores her totally when he's out together with his so-called group. what's it with following the crowd and totally acting 'cool'? i think he wouldn't even stop to look at her. or ask her how she is. i think he wouldn't even care if she just drop dead that moment. all he cares about is the person he 'likes'. have he ever thought about the feelings of his friend? is it even FAIR to her? i doubt he even knows how annoying he's turning to. all he cares about is his so-called 'love'. sigh. ck, i'm telling you again, I TOTALLY TOTALLY HATE-HATE HER.

why can't i exchange my COLOURFUL life for a dull and plain one? there are just too many regrets in life. how can you not have any when life's so COLOURFUL? my bad for not really cherishing that friendship of mine. but seriously i still can't figure out what went wrong. i really don't know. i don't want to leave it like that. yet there's nothing i can do. i was too hot-headed. i didn't think well. maybe if i had done something earlier. you'd never stop, would you?

there and then. sigh. i think every choice you make would affect the other people, sooner or later. all in all, i prefer getting hurt. hurting others hurts more.

i'm just selfish. i'd rather you be guilty.

tiredday!

i'm so glad i have you. a friend that follows through storms. that can help me in every way i need to be help. someone avaliable at all times. =D. thanks loads.

went and got report card. omg. As and more Bs. =( kahliang got 4 A1s. sigh. we made a pact. i shall tutor him for EL and he shall tutor me for the rest. LOL. tianwei and i talked about YOU-KNOW-WHO during the whole thing. =x i think i'm turning evil. krix, don't worry. i'll always be behind you! even though two of your bestfriends are jerks. LOL. Should know who i'm referring to ba. haha. soo happy to see you soon!

MsC did not want to give me my report book omg. but she can keep it if she wants. why would i want it back? that only reason i'm taking it is because she wants to give it to me. and anyway, she just wants to see my mom's face. so why don't i bring a picture of my mom and give it to her? xD. i'm mean =x. but seriously, i HATE her. as much as i hate YOU-KNOW-WHO, ck you better note this. =P

so after everything just slacked at the playground downstairs. with JL and lewis. sigh. RAZZMATAZZ `06 tmr. wish us luck.

i'm so sorry if i hurt you.

I'MTRYING. to get into mood for working.

seriously i have tons to do and yet i'm still slacking here in front of the com. omg. and now i have this strong urge to talk to my GOOD seven-year-friend. who'll probably just reply 'mayB' to whatever i say. omg. and my birthday planning isn't done yet. sigh. how HOW?

okae. this is a totally random post. xD.
i shall be able to get to work now. LOL.

i don't even want to know.