everyone had spoken their part. so is it my turn yet?

i can't let it affect me.

performance day coming...

为什么要在做错后才后悔，才来道歉呢？
为什么就不会珍惜眼前的一切呢？
就真的不能知足吗？

this is just random... stel just tried to ask everyone in sight, "If god is fair, then is life fair?". sometimes i believe that there's a time for each and everyone of us to do a particular thing. but sometimes i'd rather treat it as if it's all in god's will. i wonder if my unwillingness to make my steps is going to hinder my journey or has god already planned everything for me so that i can just watch as i move. oops. sidetracking.

personally, i think god isn't fair all the times but he is still fair sometimes? =/ i'm tired. shall not elaborate. =X

you'll never imagine what i have to say.

I LURVE SCHOOL!

that is apart from some people and the lessons ar. but seriously. i found it erm. part of my life which it's supposed to be since i'm a student of some sort? hah.

i think i'm having super many problems. one, i luRve skipping. you can never imagine how much i like to jump. but it has turned out that... i'm not sure... i think i am sucked for my interest. i think i'm losing it. and instead i'm caught fantasizing in my own world, reading and trying to brainstorm of fictions. i think it's disturbing. skipping is where i started. and it'll be where i end. but it's still weird. all the time waiting to finally be able to jump with the X-Jumpers. =/...

two, i am so-so-so dead. i'm like slacking my head off everyday. there are thing i need to do and i know. but i just can't be bothered. i just wait till i really NEED to do it or even let it pass. i'm worried. i can't stop slacking and yet, i'm worried about how my results will turn out. that's bad.

threee. having some stupid friendship problems. SUPER fed up. like i said in the past posts [and like stel commented]. i don't even what i did to even get this kind of treatment. so... wtf. hah. and i can't seem to talk to my friends properly anymore. it's just as if i only have myself. myself to count on and to stand on. like there's no one else. but... guess it's a habit... well...

so the conclusion? i'm just some worrywart who worries over something that i can NOT worry about. and i'm just a typical problematic girl =).

yada yada yada...

seriously, i think i'm TOO YOUNG and i SUCK.

i HURT someone.

and i HATE myself for it.

just LEAVE ME ALONE.

PLEASE.

i don't even know what's the use of tearing when it's SO my FAULT.

it's just NOT the same anymore.

feeling disturbed.

• homework unfinished
• broke
• having some guy BITCHING around in my tagboard
• loss of answer

this is my blog. i write whatever i want. if you are seriously unhappy with me, then leave. don't even have to try and make me hate you because it WILL work. it works everytime. i'm like some short-tempered person so how does doing that give you ANY SATISFACTION?

and i'm not kidding. i think it's stupid and childish to try and manipulate people's feelings. ten points for that friend who said that 'that guy, trying to anger me' SUCKS [anyway, i think you suck too, not only she thinks so.] and another ten for myself deciding not to get any birthday gift or even think about being friends with him again.

SERIOUSLY, you make me SICK.