It's July. Was busy the last two days with the IOC thingy. Can't deny that the after performance outtings were of the best things happening this year? LOL. Whatever. Actually, I do not wish to go into details on what happened. Except for the fact that I wasn't doing anything much at the perf. ? But seriously, I kinda lost interest before the whole thing started.

I wanna excel. I wanna work hard. I wanna make sure that I do my part. What's stopping me? Me. Aww. I feel guilty somehow that I didn't work hard enough. That I couldn't take the hardship of practising for long periods. But what can I do other than try to work harder? =/

Like what Mr Lee said. I guess I should just treat it like some normal stuff. And somehow, I'm starting to think that it's "normal". And I guess it really is. After yesterday? LOL. And I'm not good enough I suppose.

The phonecall. The words. The actions. Every single bit threatening to kill. My confidence slashed out. Leaving me breathless. Shouldn't have even thought. Shouldn't have been me.