对你的保护，到底是真的在保护，还是只是一种伤害？

school's getting disgustingly horrible.
i hate studying! god.
i just don't know, and i want to like graduate straight away!
although an irony,
today's CCA leaders interview is like. scary?
me and kuek were like, so incomplete without sca.
on top of that, mrsW impromptu told us that we must sing.
zz. so we just whipped up a part of the prayer la.
god, good thing it's not in the morning and our voices have pretty much warmed up.
anyway, lit play is a disaster and is really going to be disastrous at the rate it's going.
well, and now, we're called "david's band" for our incompetence in thinking a of a band name.
but if it's "david's band", then why not make it "i-love-david's-house" ?
okae, i'm not only starting to think nonsense. but i'm starting to talk nonsense already la.
and the day just gets better..

had no idea how'd be.
that the scene unfolds right before me once again.
yet, not acting upon instincts,
i allowed it to decay,
just like how monochrome images sweep past the mind.
it's happening all over again,
just that i'm no longer the protagonist.
just that i'm no longer the one ignorant.
i won't and i can't bear to watch anymore.
i don't want it befall on someone else.
but,
there's this confusion of what to ask for.
denial in whatever emotions experienced.
that now are clear as daylight yet misty as fog.
i don't know if we're just regressing right from the start.
i need more disguise.
i need more sense.

i'm sorry,
i lied, to myself.. and you.