dissected pig's eye today. lauu. imagine one eyeball looking at you la. almost purely disgusting. the lens of the eye was cool and other than that and the black ring around it, it was quite gory. everything in that eyeball was like black and liquidish. mrC said it's black so that there'll be no reflection in the eyes. so cool right, how your body works. and no matter how disgusting it was, i think i'll not regret taking bio la. haa.

i need to bang my piano to get rid of my 'psychological distractions'. lol. i guess that's why i like to play secret. LOL.

kept within the deepest abyss,
only the words unsaid that hurt;
only oblivion pierces.
sometimes even saying no to oneself wouldn't help.
but attempts have to recur;
again and again.
either forcefully or in gentleness,
pain will only exist for that insignificant moment.
only because one's tasted it's bitterness;
it will never burn anymore;
one will never be scalded,
as it'll never reach the heart in the first place.
will never be allowed to, anymore, again.