it's hard to believe, that things, once so important to you can just disappear from your life. and as you grow and mature, you realize that those stuffs weren't very important at all. more serious matters arise and you get so sufforcated but you do not know where to hide or escape to. the only way to you to flee from reality is to become lightheaded, doing stuffs you've once adored, burying yourself in work, keeping yourself happy with an effort, eliminating all the time left for you to ponder and have chimerical thoughts. but you wonder. about those things that made you lose your mind, stuffs that sweeps you away or send you to your extremes. are they really nothing anymore but lessons to be learn? are they really the past that you'd never rake up because you feel that they're no longer significant? or did you really only put them aside because of your tight schedule or because you really don't think you can face up to them?

it's weird.
the heart strings are being pulled,
totally manipulated.
but the heart never skips a beat,
the cold sweat or stuttering never comes.
sufforcation occurs,
but never came nervousness.
the orbs do not tear,
but the mind can't be cleared.

it'll never be mine.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, bro (: !!
thanks for being there, ever since you were shorter than me! LOL. yep, have a great birthday and make all your wishes ^^. update me often ar, busy man. hahas. hope school's good for you, work hard for your o's! jiayou!