yes, I'M BACK!!!

lol. secTHREE camp was better than i thought. i guess we quite bonded but i still don't know a few of the guys' names la. =x. three grace rocks ^^. hmm. first day was okae, reached there in a ferry, then pitched out tents. our group then went for rafting and abseiling. OMG!!! i love rafting! so fun! i think it's the nicest activity among all the rest lurh! our raft floated! but when we, the unbalanced ppl sat on it and starting rowing[i didn't even know how to row]. LOL. the raft started to get unbalanced and then we started falling into the man-made lagoon LOL. it was only until then our raft started to fall apart lurh. still very good de lor! LOL. i wanted to try abseiling lurh. climbed all the way up, then after shimin went, i was about to go when the lightning strike! omg! the abseiling tower was like so high and the stairs was spiral and very narrow. damn i had to climb all the way down again la! LOL. went nightwalk in the night. wasn't really scary but i thought it was a good experience.

second day, went doing the low ropes and a little of the high ropes as well as exploring the island. i think the low ropes got us more bonded. i'm glad that i went to the camp la. if not i would have missed out bonding with them, and i would have to face total strangers in class la. now my forearm and even my biceps hurt la. lol. the high wall was so high and then when they sort of supported my legs to get me up and the top ppl pulled, lieww. i tried twice and hung there twice also la. lol. i think everyone tried very hard at that element, lol. i like my class ^^. i walked the single log!!! LOL. thought it was hard but it was like quite easy[especially when you grab on to the belaying rope - which you're actually not supposed to =x] LOL. then the exploring of the island, tiring but i learnt quite abit about my classmates. woo. then it was the campfire! was quite high but still, tired haha. then mr wee tried to act like mrs tan, while reading her speech to us because she couldn't be here. damn funny la. hmm. thought didn't win the ben & jerry's voucher, i think i gained alot. ((:

hmm. then was quite worried about sweetie when i left for camp. damn. i really see the resemblence of all relationships. is that how they work? hahas. reminded me about myself. but i guess, i no longer feel much. perhaps camp made me too busy to think about anything else or i really didn't want to miss out on moments of life by standing on the spot and not moving on, like the camp chief told us [to cherish each moment because it would never be the same again].so, there.
SWEETIE: be strong okae? i'm glad that you've cried it out rather than keep it to yourself and end up doing something silly or something. don't try to think about the possibilities for you to revive this relationship anymore okae? tell yourself, it's impossible, it's over and it's his loss. because you're a nice girl and you've gave your everything trying. but it didn't work out, perhaps you two weren't meant to be, or it was just made this way to teach you lessons you have to learn, before you finally find the 'one'. i know you've put in alot and when you see it all comes to waste, you feel that it's unfair ba[like on your blog] hmm. i think, there is no right or wrong in 'love'[that is unless he cheats on you or do something else more horrible]. if he likes someone else, it cannot be helped, just like how you liked him in the first place. and it can't be blamed because maybe he did put in the same amount of effort but you can't feel it or it wasn't enough for you? have vengeful thoughts, think about the past, be angry, cry and make yourself feel better now. but calm yourself down after that and think about the lessons you've learnt before you step out again okae? i know it's hard for you. but you and i know you can do it, slowly. 'cause there's a solution for every situation in life no matter how complexed or impossible-to-solve it may seem. yep, and i'm glad you know that you should never give up the good things in live for such stuffs. (: learn from it and grow okae? your friends, us, will always be there for you if you need us to be [even when you do not need us to be xD.]. i'm on 24/7 hotline [as long as i hear the phone ringing]! LOVES <3 !!

and i'm all about growing up again. i can feel emo even at camp and i can't believe it. LOL. it's like an all-of-a-sudden thing. maybe it's a habit that i should kick? hahas. and i don't know since when did i become so full of tears. lol. seriously. i mean though i easily start to cry when my parents start poking at my sentimental nerves but i don't really do it for no reason la. i think i'm getting teary-eyed so often that i'm starting to become afraid of myself. lol. i think things would settle soon. after i get used to my surroundings again. hard to recover. sigh.

i think i'm so selfish. shouldn't elaborate why. don't know how i can get over it. or rather counter it. my bad, if you felt anything, sorry.

bleah. meet-the-parents session, they told our parents that we should use less of computers!! OMG! or did they tell them, we all seemed like zombies in the morning? AHHH! my mom actually wants to pose a curfew of using the com for me! i can't believe it lurh!! she actually said i should stop using by ten! that's damn early la! but i bargained for eleven. hehe. omg. that's like.. sigh. hope i can't do so ba. hahas.

why don't i have the courage. it's what i want, isn't it?