have been thinking alot. feeling too dettached from school life that i don't even think that i'm studying anymore. awful feeling of fear. can't be blogging everything i feel. mood spoiling for people who read lurh. damn. i need a good cry lurh.

would one really be more reserved after being hurt? because of all the effort and attempts and getting nothing in return? is that the reason we shouldn't get into any complicated stuff, now? and the way i feel now? it totally sucks.

"they always say, the first leaves the deepest impression.
the first is the most painful among the rest.
the first has the most impact than subsequent times.
the first is always the most innocent.
the first is often the purest.
and they're right."

this kind of lies aren't funny.

will update soon..