it the end even thought i can't see it coming. but. i owe nobody nothing. apologies made. truth revealed. time to get off from it. till the day i see that smile, directed to me, again. i am so sorry. i hope you'd understand.

i got really tired of trying to explain myself in many situations. and what they think doesn't matter to me anymore. i found explaining pointless. because people who will understand would have understood while people who do not probably chose not to understand. if they really do not, what's the point of explaining again and again? hah. but i do have to admit that, being misunderstood is one of the worst things that can happen. the only thing to be done is to be thankful for the people who try to understand and put themselves in your shoes.

went with tw for dinner today. both of us struck in the situation. i pulled her in. but i'm glad that she was understanding. i'm really really sorry, i said countless times. but i know none of these words would actually cover up for my guilt. i'm thankful for her being there for me most of the times and trying to comprehend what i'm saying most of the time. and of course, i'm also blessed with other people who brighten up my life. i want to thank them.

in the end, i still believe that, sincerity will demolish all the 'walls' seperating people. maybe not yet. but i truly believe that it eventually will. and as long as i hadn't meant to hurt anyone, i will be understood, one day.