so.. that's what the book have been talking about.
i am afraid to feel what i really feel.
i search for things that i can do to make myself feel falsely secured or to avoid feeling my emotions.
i fear my emotions. it's so obvious.
need to clear my head.
maybe she's been right about me being too young.
because now i know it's so much, too much for me to handle perhaps?
need to recollect myself again.
consideration to be done.
choices to make.
mind is blank.
feeling kinda lost.
but gonna be fine. i know. because i'm strong.
at least i've gotten the priceless, the truth.
maybe this is the price to pay.