i'm supposed to blog about the outting. LOL. since none of them did yet. they cheered me up! =DD. lol. so.. we've went to eat at cavana. and we decided what to eat only after 7862596562359743623 MINUTES. we're all hungry except for ed so we were all grumbling while waiting for the food. lol. oh ya. FORGOT TO MENTION: WX PS-ED US! lol. oh well.. then my evil twin took out the bag of chocolates she wanted to give us. and it was all like.. ewww soft. ate some of it anyway. but some of them tasted really.. err. weird. LOL. nevermind. thanks twin(:! kae. then somehow, we ended up buying ice cream, ONE WHOLE TUB, at NTUC lol and we got spoons from the foodcourt. bought a few other things then headed to the playground at wx's block. made so much noise that i think she noticed or something. but still, called her like mad to get her down. talked and talked and decided our next meeting. woots! ice skate! and the initial plan, steamboat lurh. hope that nothing crops up lurh.(:

LOVE THEM LOADS <3

internet connection not on my side yesterday. it was unstable the whole day and i was quite fed up. and then i was feeling much better and could think calmer but i think i still need emotion management classes lurh. lol. can't really recalled what i did all day. but left for piano lesson. miraculously, my sightreading improved. happiness. lol. my dad says he's gonna get me a piano[i hope he means it]. and then went to popular for a long shop. suddenly feel motivated to work on my languages so bought one assessment for each language, hope that i'll do them. then bought a book which still seem great after 50 pages. LOL. something about emotional awareness. then went for a walk around. as intuition tells me, i should walk over to the canal. so i did. lol. walked a big round then when i saw a table at the void deck of the block beside bro's[if i never remembered wrongly]. sat there awhile. wrote loads. just me and my music =DD. i should take walks more often! lol. suddenly some non-chinese old man[not very old la i think] just sat down without my consent =(. intruder! lol. so i just quickly finished my stuff and walked further to the canal.

and i saw someone wearing black, at the bottom rocks fishing lurh. he's like really camouflaged until i really looked properly that i noticed. lol. so then, i walked back. SLOWWWWWLLLYYYY. lol. bought some stuff at NTUC for my dad and then went home. and by the time i did, the connection still sucked. so i read, talked on the phone and slept.

and damn. it totally stuck me when i read this thing in the morning. "You also cannot stop a painful emotion by shouting at people or things, or withholding your love." - pg 50, The Heart of the Soul by G Zukav & L. Francis. okae. maybe by doing that i did felt better, FOR THE MOMENT. but damn, it just makes me feel more miserable isn't it? =/. the pain is not the problem. it's just seeking my attention to what needs to be healed. what have i been thinking?

一句抱歉都僵在嘴边...