home's becoming a nightmare for me.

haven't been feeling any want to go home. got this weird feeling about home. that letter from my mom. omg. i think she's giving up and i'm like totally freaking out. i feel so helpless. i know i need to talk to her. but i don't know how to. totally helpless =/.

never felt this way before. even feel nervous because i'll be going to school with her tomorrow. omg. how am i going to live through it? don't know what to do. just talk to her or write her another letter? sigh. scared to talk to her man. =/ as i am so SUPERBLY emotional. i don't wanna cry again. makes me look tired and ugly. sigh. how? =(.

Things To Do:
one `brainstorm Ginevra choreography.
two `solve conflict.
three `all projects and stuffs.
four `make new blogskin.
five `suicide. xD

if only i can die and ressurect again. sigh.

and ck, i DON'T like her!!