you never gave me a chance.

i wonder what's really wrong with me. why can't i be CONSISTENT on what i say and what i want to do? why do i get shaken so easily?

went to army market with shimin, fatin and jason. saw him at the mrt station. shocked. surprised. trembled for the next few minutes. weird. stupid friendship. stupid quarrel. stupid pride. stupid feelings. stupid me.

you'd never stop to wait huh?

i wonder why i was so worked up and why i had such reaction. and yet again, it's so 'complicated' that i can't comprehend. why wouldn't i just give up? i think it's silly. to be still trying to hold on to some friendship that is not broken on MY side. i need advice. i need direction. i need guidiance.

i had not fallen for someone else.

ended the day packing for camp after cooking dinner at cousin's house and eating dessert with her. i almost started feeling homesick, when i'm not even near going there yet. i think i don't want to go. but of course, there's no backing out now. and i'm starting to feel bad about the whole hpt thing. am i even up to it? seriously, i don't know. i really don't know.

lp said he did tell him he met me. wx made me regretted not to go up to him to talk. which will probably make me look like an idiot. IF he just walks away. like i even care about that. so i really wonder. continue to act like i don't care? or what? but in the end, who would even know the trouble i go through?

IDON'TKNOWSOSTOPASKINGME

TODOSOMETHING.