i'm so pissed. i typed a long post two days ago. and my connection suddenly got cut so, my post is gone. TSK. but being guilty of not blogging for so long, i decided that i should get it up again.

dearie told me that maybe if i stop questioning, i'd feel less confused. i guess she's right. because only if i stop seeking, i'll expect fewer answers and perhaps then they may all be answered. okae, before talking about taman i shall just put up some overdue pictures =):

me & carina @ YATCH CLUB(:

me, jeanne, sally waiting to watch "off center" @ the esplanade.

ed & me, after dance. so nice of him to wait for me!

me & chiagek! MYLOVE! lol.

jeanne & me (on the way back form army market)

evilsibs @ AMK hub.

artistic shot outside TOASTBOX!

otah toast & milo dinosaur! *DROOLS**

the taman camp was actually fun. and i think it's the slackest camp i've been to. even slacker than the choir camp. tsk. so much rest time in between the activities and the lodging is damn good lurh. i'm glad i went, though, i was very afraid to remind myself of the past. well, i got through it. and i'm quite proud of myself. (:

FIRSTDAY: took the long long bus trip again. stopped at many stops which were quite exactly the places we've rested at last year. kept listening to "I'll Remember You" but No Secrets, a song from last year's choir graduation. it made me feel a little sad. because though the lyrics were true and meaningful, it doesn't seem to mean anything to me anymore. haha. so.. arrived there in the evening, settled down in the cave that we're supposed to stay. man, was so cool lurh. better than i've ever thought. glad that even on the first day, i've got to know more about a few of my friends. i survived mosquitos with many of leslie's mosquito patches! THANKS(:

SECONDDAY: finally abseiled. i remember that i actually wanted to during UBIN camp but lightning came before i was able to. and i was made to climb all the way down the steep stairs again. haha. i didn't want to try this time at first as it was optional but i did anyway, and i didn't regret it. it was hard to get to the abseil site though. and all the way up i was cursing and regretting to have even had any thought of trying. elias went first then i followed. nearly scraped myself at the cliff. but i was too careful (:. went for caving after lunch. i'm so happy that i didn't get any leech bites ^^. lucky me! got help on the way, here and there and saw many beautiful sights in the caves. and you wouldn't imagine the silly thoughts i had. lol. i can't even believe them myself. but not to worry, i guess whatever they are, it was just one of those "at-that-moment" kind of stuffs. arrived at the resort that night and went for "knot-tying-lessons" for rafting the next day and ended up playing the childhood string game and found out that zongqin was damn pro la. bathed in a duper unique way that day la. haha. slept like it was home. the bunk was too luxurious, for a camp =P.

THIRDDAY: did rafting. was dying to do this again since UBIN camp, but somehow it didn't seem as fun as it was. expected that all the NP and NC people are tying the thing as we didn't learn a single thing the night before. our foundation was damn strong lurh. but the barrels floated away in the water. so ya. my sandals broke! i lent xuanliang as he was going into the water. then when he returned it to me, the strap already came off. :( lucky i never brought my darling havaianas. haha. went to do flying fox after that. wasn't as scary as i thought and kinda cool. learnt weaving that night. didn't bring the product back though. had a good night's sleep again.

FOURTHDAY: trekked up kuala tahan. and really BUAY tahan. i think i've never sweared as much in a few hours in my life as i did while trekking. couldn't wait to finish it lurh. it's more like my mom's kind of activity than mine. went for the canopy walk like last year so nothing really new. other than the bees around those area which were kind of 'new'? lol. but i didn't got stung.(: thought much about the previous time i went and seriously had the urge to take a look at the campsite, was so damn close to it. but i didn't. not sure why. finally came out of the jungle place and to the motorboats after hours. lunch was super cool, with four heart-shaped nuggets and a super oily drumstick -_-". went off to rapid-shooting after lunch. was fun and i guess unlike previously. kept splashing the back. and leslie actually wanted to change places with zhikai to get back at me. but in the end i was still pro-er in splashing! ^^ finally reached the trainstation @ 12++ in the night (my supposedly most awaited 'activity' ) damn tired, and actually slept sitting at the platform. train came @ 2++ and finally left malaysia for home

FIFTHDAY: reached woodlands custom. enjoyed camp, thanks to the people who were there. relations with some people improved while some stayed put. couldn't care less. wiped off all those silly and unfruitful thoughts. time to join the urbanized civilization again.

-HOME SWEET HOME-

went out with ed two day ago, fished a present for his friend. at the korean cold noodles at wisma again. sourness! i like(: he spent about a hundred bucks on two wallets in less than two hours. broke lurh. then we had a little gossip session @ mccafe. happy that i wasn't even affected when we talked about the past. so weird that we weren't even close during pri school days right? but then people do change. trained home early since i had piano lessons. so nice of him to travel to yishun station with me. then went separate ways there. thanks for the great outing! LOVES! <3

although the man had left, the song still stays. right there in my heart.