i feel so bad, seriously.

he's so good to me. he cares about how i actually feel. he wants to know my needs. he wants to know about me. he notices every single little thing i do even the small little change of expression.

YET.

i can't treat him the same way. it feels weird. hah.

focus. have to focus on X-Jump! i really hope we can get something out of it. but nowadays i feel as if we're not there anymore, even spiritually. everyone is busy with their own thing. and i'm VERY VERY distracted from the sport. sigh.

been sleeping alot lately. don't know what's wrong with me. bleah.

sorry.